tour this city

ellah ellah ellah eh

2008-07-05T12:31:52Z

I'm glad I lost all my old friends.
really, it doesn't feel any different.
I guess I can't do this anymore.
screaming out "WE'RE ALL DIFFERENT!" but are we different?
I also really like being the only one without a squeeeeeeeeeeeeze.
well I guess that's my fault for drinking and smoking.

HEY EVERYBODY! REPEAT AFTER ME AND MAKE A FOOL OF YOURSELF.
nobody is even watching, trust me.

this didn't hurt.

goodnewsmorning @ 2008-04-15T01:31:00

2008-04-15T05:37:30Z

I miss girls.
ha.

I know, ironic right.
whatever.

I just want a dime. for once.
well I should say again.
I fucked stuff up before.

please help me.

goodnewsmorning @ 2008-03-03T22:02:00

2008-03-04T03:08:27Z

I have literally created an alter ego of myself; unintentionally of course.
A persona of a cool, mellow, and self confidently portrayed person.
Ideally this would be great, if there was no opposition.
A skinny little white kid, thought by most to actually be a fagot.
"Well, when I first met you I kinda thought..." FUCK THAT!

I don't know shit anymore.
This is wearing me thin.
and everyone, everyone has left the building.

Last one out please turn off the lights.

Ladies and Gentlemen....

2008-02-29T17:46:20Z

sometimes I want to beat the fuck out of everyone I see.
with a Louisville Slugger.

I rewrote this like a hundred times because I don't know what to say.
I hate this.
I hate this.
I hate this.

this is just depressing.

I'd paint these walls red with your blood.

2007-11-06T15:01:41Z

Your name is Jason.
You have an alcohol and drug abuse problem.
You're a scumbag.
You have no money.
You have no job.
You have no life.
You are everything I hate about people.
You walk around like you own the place.
You in fact, own nothing.
You may grow up some day, you may not.

I will not care if you grow up.
I will not care if you don't.
I will not be at your wedding.
I will not be there for your kids.
I will not be at your funeral.
I will never be there for you.

We have the same father, but you are not my brother.
I have never despised someone so much as I do, you.
It's past the point of hate.
I no longer care for, or about anything you do.
We are done here.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-11-04T08:49:00

2007-11-04T13:50:35Z

this just isn't fair.
why is it never fair?
why isn't she always here?

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-10-03T09:21:00

2007-10-03T13:24:32Z

I just wanna drop out or something. I don't know.

I scream, you scream, we all scream for ecstasy

2007-10-01T17:22:27Z

what a friday
52 hours long.

I rolled face two days in a row.
it was pretty awesome.
obviously, the first day was the best in my life.

Justin, Ryan, Mike, Joe and Justin.
oh, jess loper was there.
she's a cunt. cunt cunt cunt! got too drunk.
stupid slut. GOD I HATE HER!
but it was fun making fun of her.
and I wrote I love anal on her lower back.
hahahaahhahahah!

the second night was good too.
it started off with smoking a blunt.
started getting gay flashbacks.
but real mild this time.
and then E!
woooosh.
Justin and I blew a pill each.
we chilled
I gave them the last of my beer.
well really I gave them all.
because it tasted nasty on e.

everyone left.
it was just me mike and justin.
none of us had slept yet.
we watched some gay ass movie
and mike had to go
he had church or some shit in the morning

me and justin walked like three times around the block
came back
bought a pack of smokes
smoked it in like two maybe three hours.
just sat there and talked for ever.
it was weird.
not in a bad way though.
it was kind of awesome.

I need a bass.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-09-29T12:16:00

2007-09-29T16:19:12Z

last night was fun
but now I'm fucked.

you don't know shit.

2007-09-16T01:48:12Z

I'll be pissed if I wake up tomorrow.
that's how much I hate my life right now.

I mean, my friends and my drugs.
they are seriously the only thing keeping me alive.
I couldn't ask for better friends.
maybe better weed.

I hate work.
that's an understatement.
I hate school.
that's most of my days.
I hate my house.
mostly because I have no time to make it better.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-09-12T22:14:00

2007-09-13T02:18:23Z

only once the drugs are done
that I feel like dying....
I feel like dying.

this isn't living anymore.
this is just waiting.......

Uncle Cid for a one night only.

2007-09-04T19:08:23Z

okay.
here I am. sober again.
I missed feeling things normally.

took about a hit and a half at seven.
got fucked up by 9.
finally came down at 6.
that's not right.
that's not right.

I don't know what the fuck happened.

it was great.
I wanted to go to shane's but nobody else did untill ryan came but by then everyone left.
I need a blunt.
or some smokes.
something.

I was coming down from my trip and I was gonna go watch a movie.
and then jenna was downstairs and scared the fucking shit out of me.
and then all the sudden I started trippen balls again.
just I want to tell you everything.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-09-04T03:21:00

2007-09-04T07:26:59Z

I have been tripping balls for too long man
what the fuck.

I just want a return to normalcy on me.
fuck the world, I forgot how being sober feels.

Seriously, it has to have been like four weeks.
not 8 hours.
I am still tripping fucking balls.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-08-22T07:51:00

2007-08-22T11:58:03Z

oh my I'm so excited.
CAMPING!
It's gonna be the tits man!

we're bringing like four thirty packs.
three bottles.
and whatever urban, jake and jessy bring.
It's gonna be awesome.
we even might get a bottle of wine.
hahahahahahahaha.
that would be ill.

plus after that school starts!
I always love when school starts.
then I hate it the next week.
but whatever it's senior year.
who the fuck cares.
I wanna roll the first day of school.
that would be hilarious.
I think it would be great.
I'm in such a great mood.
I've been up for like three hours.
and it's not even eight yet.
I can't wait to get new clothes either.
new clothes rock!
yea!

ok now I gots to gets to gettin.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-08-15T10:01:00

2007-08-15T14:07:00Z

I'm eating stale fruit loops in milk that probably went bad.
life's still not that bad.
I'm getting along with jay lately.
I don't know how, but I like it.
I saw jess the other day.
it was nice, I really missed her.
I get a cell phone.
I really wanna go school clothes shopping
before my senior pictures get taken.

I saw her last night
man, I went through way too much shit for her.
and look what I get out of it.
nothing

these fruit loops are no good anymore.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-08-12T12:31:00

2007-08-12T16:32:01Z

I just hung out with jess.
we got high.
it was good.
I missed her.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-08-11T09:20:00

2007-08-11T13:21:42Z

I GOTS A CELL PHONE, BITCH!

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-08-07T23:45:00

2007-08-08T03:47:10Z

okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
time to get new, friends!

and you don't even know what I mean.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-08-02T12:52:00

2007-08-02T16:54:37Z

I don't know why I'm acting like this.
I'm sorry.
I guess I just got a lot to say and nobody to say it to.

whatever.
laurence is dead.
I haven't seen him in years though
at first it was like, that's my bro.
but ... now it's more like that was my bro.

I guess, it's life.
even if it does happen a little too fast.

he said
"shit, just be happy you're alive kid."

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-08-02T10:37:00

2007-08-02T14:48:21Z

I'm going to start doing heroine!
:]

yo not really.
but I've been getting calls again.
from old friends.
and I hate when this stuff goes down.
it makes me feel like a bad person.
but I'll beat that kids face in again.
and again.
and again.
because that's my family.
and you just don't cross lines.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-08-01T10:21:00

2007-08-01T14:22:00Z

last night was great.
we bought a quarter.
rolled it up into four blunts.
smoked the shit out of them.
and went to go see the simpson's movie.
it was great.

I love ciggarettes.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-07-31T18:57:00

2007-07-31T22:57:39Z

you know how like you think of old friends and you usually miss them.
like unless something stupid happened and their a d-bag.

I mean like the friends that just kind of drifted.
how come I don't miss them?

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-07-30T10:11:00

2007-07-30T14:13:07Z

last night?
last night I got drunk.
last night I got drunk as fuck.
last night I got drunk as fuck with Seth Mosher and Patrick.

fucking rum.

I hate throwing up.
ugh.
whatever!
im still drunk

worst day ever...

2007-07-26T23:23:49Z

I can not live like this anymore.
I'm sorry. I really am. I don't want anyone to be mad.
I don't want people to be sad about it either.

I just need to get out of this house.
I just want things to be fixed.
I just want everyone to be happy.
is that too much to ask?

god I could use a friend right now.

my dad asked me to live with him.
I think I might. I don't know. If jason does I won't.
otherwise I think it'd be for the best.

goodnewsmorning @ 2007-07-26T13:28:00

2007-07-26T17:37:50Z

I realized how much I hate smoking pot everyday.
I'm done.
just sometimes on the weekends or something.
I don't care.

All my friends like Jay better.
I hate Jason.
fuck him. my shit is mine from now on. not ours.
Danielle has been a big cunt lately.
She just whines about everything now. oh my god!

oh yea, I don't talk to a lot of people anymore.
like... really, I just hate my old friends.
like I don't talk to eric and roy and tom and steve
or mike and nick
or emma
or jake and shorty

I kind of miss shorty.
but he's bad news. stupid nigger.

forget it.